Breaking routine loops
Stepping outside well worn habits
Finding something new!
a term time shadow
of myself, and my glory
a choice I have made
I feel like a different person in the holidays. Like work takes so much of me that I am a shadow of myself during term time.
I undo my shoe laces.
I have a single resolution this year. Just that one. I will endeavour to complete this task regardless. I won’t avoid it when I’m tired or anxious. When I’m stressed or angry. I will always do it. I can’t not, really. It takes seconds. If I can’t do this then I can’t do anything. But in my head I will remember the converse. I I can do this, I can do anything. So I do this thing so that I can do anything. I have a thousand more resolutions. I pick them up from the ground. I borrow them from friends and family who give them with love. I steal them from strangers whom I silently give thanks to. I do them until they become habit or until I let them fall because they didn’t work. They are not resolutions for the year but for-ever and ever or for just this moment. Both work. I have many, but one that matters.
It feels like,
It’s not just getting
Time
To yourself .
It’s having time,
With the right
Frame of mind.
Which is where I fall down.
each haircut
each set of outgrown clothes
each start of a new school year
moves us closer to that thing we dread
our kids growing up
our kids leaving
this is not to depress you
it’s to help you enjoy now
while it’s here
while they are
the past is past
put our mistakes behind us
stop being distracted or too busy
rededicate ourselves — to parenting
our most important job
let us begin afresh, afresh, afresh
for
today is the very last time
they will be this age
again
Paraphrased from Daily Dad
